unlovable

Don’t want anything you have for me
Blow me away, gently or harshly as you desire
I’m tired of every breath and all about it
Have I not had enough? Not enough?
I’m weary, in tatters, only crumbs and dust
Let me sink in my loneliness, let me be the loner..
Let me once again get lost in the mist..
It’s better that way; I have nothing but my loneliness to accompany me
Further away from your yelling, from my madness
I’m tired of arguing in life, tired of looking for hope
What, where, why- they don’t bother me anymore
For I want peace, tucked away from this ugly cacophony
Do me a favor, let me live, let be breathe
Push me away, gently or harshly as you desire
It was only a consoling illusion…it was only a lie
It was hope
You, yes you will never know me,
You will never see anymore then what others have seen..
Don’t you bother, have we not all had enough?
It’s eccentricity I have, always will…
Don’t tell me you don’t have any of it
Can’t take any of this anymore
Can you?
Ask me not for another step
Ask me not for another grip
I’m crippled, weak and weary, in shambles
I’m the culprit
If you call it a disease, you’re right
If you call it madness, you’re right again
If you call it sickness, you’re right once more
Don’t want you to care or love,
I don’t know what they are for me
Know anyone that is unlovable?
None other than me…